Our God is such a BIG and glorious God. How blessed am I that He would call me to be a part of such an organization like Catholic Heart Workcamp. God has been so good to me.
Today as I sat through my training to be a manager and through hanging out with all these fellow “staffers” today I have had an overwhelming sense of just how BIG God is. What he has done with this little soul. In a short prayer of “Come Holy Spirit and fill me with the Grace to do BIG things”, He did. He has all things and still He wants me. Wow.
I sat in the room tonight feeling so at peace with my life and with the situations that I have found myself in, in recent months. What a blessing Christopher has been in my life, but how much I find Christ and the true meaning of the “passing on of Faith” in our Beautiful Catholic Church. And while I have found heartbreak in the arguments and the pain of it all, I find Home amidst these people. And these people are the Church. They are MY generation of the church that the man I am so deeply in love with began.
During praise and worship I thought about what a gift and how humbled I am by the call God has given me to serve him. While I am broken, he calls me. While I am arrogant, He calls me and while I intend on questioning and not listening, He gently, yet sternly places on my heart, what later become my own simple, yet most intense, desires.
I am so thankful, so overwhelmed and so humbled at how small I really am. If not for Love, I truly would be nothing. I love this organization and the hope it brings, I love Jesus Christ, the center and the essence of my life, I love these people, the church I belong to, and most of all I love the fact that God, as big as He is, as grand and majestic as He is speaks to someone as limited as I, with such love for the original masterpiece he created.
I am loved. I chose in 7th grade to be Lucy, a new creation in Christ, and here I am today…Holy Spirit guiding every small fragile step, blessed beyond all measure wondering why in the world I get paid to do this.
Lord, for all you do, for all you are and all you plan for me to be with you, Thank you.
