Here it is...

Here is the song that I wrote that i recently posted.
I recorded it in a dark church (hence the echo) and I have a HORRIBLE cold. SO i apologize in advance for the stuffiness.
But here's to it! Cheers
Ashleigh

Enchanted....I want a fairytale, I believe there's one out there for me :)

I went with my mom and sister and brother to see "Enchanted" this weekend.....Small announcement: " THIS IS THE CUTEST MOVIE EVER". Thank you.


Is it so much to ask to be swept off your feet by Patrick Dempsey? Didn't think so.
Oh McDreamy, you've done it again.
Really though, best movie i've seen in a long time.
I often wish my life was like that though, I want to be the princess, singing through the streets of New York searching to find my Prince only to find the man who didn't want me has fallen in love with the person I am :)
AHH Fairy Tales.
SO CUTE.


I'd settle for Jon McLaughlin. I want to love him. He's my mcdreamy.


Chris is good looking though too...Maybe I'll stick to real life for once...

"I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss!"

Emotions yesterday...different today...

Here's the song....for Kate.
In detail description of the situation later.
I'm happy. I really am. Thank God.
TODAY. I'm happy.
And I dont have to live in "what ifs"
Amen. This song has a name, but it's a name im not ready to share at this point ;)


So..."A song"

There once was a dock on a small lake

I talked to you like you were my best friend

You told me the stories of a man who changed your life

I told you the secrets of how you were changing mine

The beauty of summer love is that the summer is what its for

Don’t look back it’ll bite you again

But I want to go back, just to feel that rush again

You’re so far away, my heart is even farther and the one I love is closer than you know.

Toes dripped in the water my legs draped on yours

I laughed as I called people we both knew

Trying to get their approval of something they called from the start

We said we’d fly to see if it could work, imagine that…we never flew.

The beauty of summer love is that the summer is what its for

Don’t look back, it’ll drag you in again

But I want to go back the tears became the water dripping from my toes

Your home is where you are, and here I am too and away from you is what I want to do

That picnic bench was perfect for the nose to nose we shared

I remember asking myself if you were worth this

It took a little while for me to shake that silly smile

And the beach is where I landed your sweet lips

Maybe you’re right and yes I do believe

That hes got 1000 miles and 17 hours on you

But he’s good for me, he makes me free

And when it comes down to it, you never called when you said its what you would do.

So gone are the days of the toes of the laughter

Praising a God together in a chapel that became a home

And I will never forget, the note in my hand

Before I shared with the world a story, I wanted to forget.

If words could save a life, which I think that they can do

“you are gorgeous” became the pride in me but I cant give my love to you.

And now I’m back at home.

Happy Halloween...

Now, You may be wondering why this post is labeled Happy Halloween but I am writing in blue/pink...


MY MOM IS HAVING ANOTHER BABYYYYYY :)

How exciting huh? God answers when we ask him if we should move far away. Something to keep my occupied while I spend more time in Quincy then I had expected, but now I have wonderful reason to.

Other than that things are going pretty well...I am going to Ohio next week for National Catholic Youth Conference (that makes me excited) While nervous, to see a few people...I am more excited to get pumped up again. :)

I am going to see Christopher tomorrow and as always, that makes me happy. SO...with that being said...Happy Halloween and baby having :)
YYYYEEEEE HAW!!!


Today was the first day i ever considered auditioning for something....haven't done that for awhile sooo...hmmm...
anywho BYE

Music life...

Let me tell you what happens when I go to concerts.
I want to be on stage. I think that I mostly lack self confidence when it comes to my music. I know that I love to sing. I know that I love to write. And I know the feeling that I get when someone says "play that one song about..." or when my daughter in my sorority always said " I play your CD everyday, now its scratched because i played it too long....it sings my life" There is something about "getting people" that I love. Maybe its because I long for songs that explain the way I am feeling and I just fall in love with the artists heart when I hear them. They don't have to be sappy, sometimes they are about the most beautiful things in life or even the most simplistic. I just love the way music knocks you off your feet when it gets to you.
Sometimes I feel like I could do it. Make a career out of music and travel the world "getting people"...then again I often wonder, is it worth it? Is it really what I want....then again I have never known what exactly I want, and as I mentioned in my last post, I have real life ADD....i get sick and bored of what I am doing so quickly.

I just want to sit and write. and find the person who can make me into the musician i always dreamed of being.


New Song:

Then HE took the Cup gave thanks and praise and shared with me
shared with me
died upon a cross, flesh and blood just for me, so I could be spottless and free.
And how blessed am I that even when I'm not worthy to receive you say the words. And heal me.
CHORUS:
I'm lost inside whats real and make believe as bread and wine are transformed in front of me and I.....
Im sick of emotion taking over me, Jesus make this as real as it can be so I.....
Are you present in my tears? Are you there when overwhelmed is what defines me?
You say "I am" so I know you're here.

Then HE took the bread, broke it and said "my body, which I will give for you"
He died upon a cross flesh and blood just for me so i could be spottless and free.
And how precious is it that you would come from Heaven. To meet with me for a single blink and second.
And even when im not worthy to receive, you say the words. You heal me.
CHORUS

Sitting in a dark church, wondering how many lives were changed today.
A baby in white was baptized in this very room today
And his sins were washed away
cause of your Cross they are wiped away. SO someday

He'll be lost inside whats real and make believe as bread and wine are transformed in front of him and he...
he'll be sick of emotions taking over him, Jesus cradle him in your grip again, so you
can be present in his tears
and there when overwhelmed is what defines him.
There you are so i know you're here.

Impatient.

I am officially the most impatient person in the world.
I have real life ADD. I can't pay attention for any longer than 2 months in one place. I am already bored with my life. I need to move to Scottland and dance in a kilt or something. This weekend was so busy with homecoming stuff for my dance team....but it was fun.

My job is good. I mean I like it...I love the kids. I just hate being in Hannibal...Not becuase its Hannibal, but becuase I have no friends around here. Its sooooo boring. I am convinced that I am simply back in highschool.

Point being. I cannot pay attention. I want to move away already. Not a good sign. How do you make yourself content in the place you HAVE to be?
GRRRR......


until I figure it out...My days remain the exact replica of the day before. NICE.

ABOUT ME......This is a waste of valuable time...

1) Starting time: 11:31 a.m.
2) Your Name: Ashleigh Lynne Lucy Douglas
3) Nicknames:Depends on who you talk to....Ash to most, Baby Lu, A*bear (that ones a new favorite) Smash, Potato...A*Doug
4) School: I am officially a college graduate...Yikes.
5) E-mail: ashleighdouglas@gmail.com
7) Sign: Cancer
8) Pets: None.
9)Siblings:Cassidy, 19 Gabrielle, 16 Sam, 12 and Toni, 9 , Zane, 2
~~**HAVE YOU EVER**~~
10 )Been so drunk you blacked out: Nada.
11)Taken any illegal substances: No.
12)Gone out in public in your pajamas: I love Pajamas, everything about them, and yes...in public is a great place to wear them.
13)Missed school b/c it was raining: I skipped college classes for every reason in the book.
14)Set any body part on fire for amusement: Seriously? Cmon, what is fun about that?
15)Kept a secret from everyone: actually, im a loud mouth....Secrets however are my specialty.
16) who knows your deepest ones: Probably Katie....Mostly God.
17)Wanted to hook up with a friend: Depends on how you define "Hook up" Date, yes.
18)Cried during a Flick: I cry during 7th Heaven commercials. Then I think " Why are you crying baby?"
19)Had a crush on a teacher: I had a HUGE crush on My volleyball teacher in College....ahhhh....
20)Ever thought an animated character was hot?: I can't say I have...Johnny Bravo was pretty nice.
21)Ever at anytime owned New Kids on the Block stuff: Honestly, No.
22)Planned your week based on the TV Guide:I never watch anything religiously, life's to short for that.
23)Prank called someone: When i was younger i thought it was cool. We called Jessie Thomas from Katie Awerkamps house and crumbled paper in the phone yelling Jessie, I can't get through to you. Then we hung up...we were cool.
24)Been on stage: Yes, many a time. Dancing mostly, but now moreso for the music....or doing CHWC skits. hahaha...

~~**FAVORITES**~~
Shampoo: The kind they use at the place I get my hair done...
26)Soap: Sweet Pea :)
27)Color: I love GREEN
28)Day/Night: Definitely evening
29)Summer/Winter: Fall...I like summer better that winter though.
30)Online?usually during the day, yes.
31)Lace or satin: Satin, silky smooth is how i wish my legs felt on occasion. I hate shaving.
32)Cartoons: I love Backyardigans and Wonderpets on Nick Jr.
33)Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: Not at the moment, no. But I am content.
34)Like anyone: I am always "interested" in someone....every girl is.
35)Who have you known the longest of your Friends: Hmm....that i still talk to every now and again? Robin Powers
37)Who's the shyest:I very seldomly have shy friends.....in fact right now I can't think of any....
38)Who do you go to for Advice:My daddy. God pretty much the most, I can rely on him...other people can let me down. My grandma the most.
39)Who do you get the most surveys from: Im the only weird person who still does these..
40)Who do you cry with: I like to cry by myself. Its the one time i hate too much attention.
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>~~**IN THE LAST 2 Weeks**~~
41)Cried: I teared up on the ride home from Boston at the thought of wanting something bigger for my life.
42)Cut your hair: about 2 months ago...Just a trim.
43)Worn a skirt: TODAY!!!!!!
44)Been mean:I consider my judgemental attitude a little mean. I do that far too often.
45)Been sarcastic: i'm sure i was in the last 30 seconds.
46)Met someone new: I met a lot of new people in Boston.
47)Talked to someone you have a crush on: Yes, yes yes....
48)Missed someone: I really missed Bobby yesterday...So i called him and fixed it. i miss my CHWC team every day.
49)Hugged someone: I hugged my baby brother yesterday.
50)Fought with your parents:No, we don't fight really....
51)Wished upon a star: can't say I have.
52)Laughed until you cried: Oh Dan and Kyle, how you rock my laughter.
53)Played Truth or Dare: Haven't played that for awhile.
54)Watched a sunrise/sunset:As I drove to pom this morning...
55)Went to the beach at night: I WENT IN BOSTON AT NIGHT>.......UGH.........I LOVE the ocean.
56)Spent quality time alone: Yeah when i go to bed i just lay and think. Then i write a song and i'm up all night again.
57)Read a book for fun: I am reading the Bible for fun....
58)Ate a meal:I had a fruit smoothie and a rice cake for breakfast
59)Are you lonely: Actually , no. I mean I am but like I said before...I am content.
60)Are you happy: I truly am.
61)Are you talking to someone online:Yeah, Margo
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>~~**DO YOU BELIEVE IN**~~
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62)God/Devil: absolutely
63)Love:So many different kinds....But yes.
64)The Closet Monster: Actually no i dont believe in that. However I do always feel like someone is chasing me when i run up the stairs.
65)The Big Bang Theory: Not so much...
66)Heaven/Hell: yes....I admit though...i'm scared.
67)Superstitions:I jump over the cracks...i like my mom.
68)What is your full name? Ashleigh Lynne Lucy Douglas
69)Who named you?My mom liked Ashleigh Lynne is her middle name and my dads last name was douglas before my moms was. :) I liked lucy cause it was a Hanson song. Horrible reason to choose that as a confirmation name.
70)Backstreet Boys or N Sync? NSYNC
71) When was the last time you showered? this morning
72)What color pants do you have on right now? Jean skirt,
73)What song are u listening to right now?: Resuce by the Desperation Band
74)What was the last thing that you said: "Yeah, wake him up'
75)What is right next to you? a messy desk. my cell phone.
76)What is your computer desk made of? a lot of papers
77)What is your phone number? 217-430-9497
78)What was the last thing you ate? rice cake
79)Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: Greece or Australia.
80)Who do you want to spend the rest of your life
with?: Someone who loves God first....and then fits me in there gracefully :)
81)How many buddies do you have on your list?I dont know. Im not counting.
82) what is the weather like? UMMM BEAUTIFUL! Breezy sunshiny day.
83)Have you ever smoked pot? No, it is the one thing that makes be very irritated.
84)What did you do last night?Coached pom at the QND/QHS soccer game and then went to H.A.F.O.C and then to Waffle cone wednesday at TCBY.
85)What's the best thing that you find about the
opposite sex? Their Eyes. I love random comfort too....like when you lay down and your head falls right into the crevice on their shoulder.
86) How are you today? Great. Feeling good and shaved my legs so i feel clean :)
88)Who makes you happy? Funny people...
89)Fave CD? Damien Rice "O"
90)Dream car? I love my Mazda
91)Have you ever won any special awards? yeah a few.
92)What do you want to be when you grow up? That's a fantastic question. A cute wife and mom.
93) What are your future goals?: I want to impact youth. That's all I really care about. I would like to write another album and learn to play violin and piano
94)Fave music? How can I have a favorite? That limits me. I just like music that is catchy and AWESOME.
95)Favorite Food? Fruit smoothies. I love Ice cream too.
96)Favorite movies? Save the last Dance
97)Fave day of this year?hmmm....I dont know. I loved a lot of days.
98)Fave guys cologne? Polo. WOah! It smells so good!
99)Do you like to dance? I love to dance!
100)Fast or slow? both. So much happiness in either one.
101)Are you too shy to ask someone out? I've never asked anyone out. I'm shy when it comes to relationships.
102)Fave name brand? eh, i dont really care. As long as I think its cute.
103)If you could change your name, what would it be? I love my name. I wouldnt change it.
104)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yes, my bear, "Soony Nough"
105)Have you ever been in love? Yeah....I think i've truly been in love once.
106)What is the stupidest thing you have ever done? AH, there's so many. I dont know.
107)What will your first son's name be? Jack.
108)What will your first daughters name be? Ayva or Jocelynne
109)Favorite drink? eh, whatever Im in the mood for. I love smoothies.
110)Do you like scary or happy movies better? I love to laugh. I love to laugh. Do you know how fast you were going MEOW?
111)On the phone or in person? in Person fo shizzle
112)Lust or Love? Love... what is better than love?
113)If you could change something about yourself, what
would it be? I wish i didnt wish to be other people.
114)Do you consider cheerleading a sport?Yeah dude. Its cool to cheer.
115: Do you want your friends to answer this back? They can't
116)Who are your crushes? Josh Turner (Country music singer...check him out WOOOO)
117.)Favorite concert? Gavin DeGraw...or Dave was pretty Sweet too.
118.)Finish Time:12:01 p.m.

Thanks for wasting your time! :)

FIRST POST....

SOOOOOO, Here I am....Posting again. I think it's seriously been 3 years since the last time I was involved in this "blogging" business....But hey, that's alright. I'm back and I'm excited!....


I just thought for starters, until I have something worthwhile to blog about, I would post my Prayer journal from this morning...Sometimes those are good....

BIBLE READING
Mark 7:24-37

LORD,
Today in Mark it talks about even more of the miracles you worked. " You do all things well." Help me to not only trust you but to believe that you do, do ALL things well. Sometimes I feel that I just use you as a comfort. Like, I don't really believe-I just want to believe, Lord help me. I choose to believe, help my unbelief. I am so grateful that you love me and care about me and my life. Help me to realize what it means to be IN LOVE with you. Thank you for the joy music brings to my life. For the feeling of accomplishment last night when I learned to play "Someday" on the piano and for Robert Randolph and the Family Band, that makes me bounce and cures bad days. I find joy in those things and I know that you are love. In that love for music, I find you. Lord help me to keep my eyes focused on you, my heart open to your call and my ears open to your word. Sometimes I forget you walked this earth. I guess it just baffles my mind. Help me to remember your humanity and Divinity as I come before you daily. Bless my family, anyone who is under stress, Popple and their ministry, my future husband, (a lot of people that will remain nameless) Help my friends and family to make good choices.
I love you.
Amen.